Well I didn’t intentionally gain weight…
But anyways You have to realize that You are living still and in order to live You need to nourish Your body. Would You rather live a life where You hate yourself and feel like shit every time You eat and feel like even more like shit when You don’t eat or try to overcome Your disorder and live again? Living a non disordered life is the path You must eventually choose, or else You’re choosing death. Good luck on Your road to recovery, I wish You the best.